death is a scary thing

i havent experienced the thing death in a while,
the last funeral i went to was for a friends grandmothers funeral
not a person that i knew personally, but i went to pay my respects for him
i was there for him
and now i have a family member who passes
and where is the person there for me?
i have a few friends who got my back, but the rest
they dont understand,
like sucks real bad right now, but
theres always tomorrow,
and hopefully tomorrow will be better than today
like i said,
death is a fucking scary thing.