a knights tale

I miss you like the sun misses the flowers, like the sun misses the flowers in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world which your absence has banished me to.
-- A Knight's Tale --

ALEX: Izzie.
LEXIE: Alex, it’s Lexie. Alex.
ALEX: Iz. I’m sorry. Don’t go. We got married. Please don’t go.
LEXIE: I’m not going anywhere.
ALEX: You came back for me, Iz.
LEXIE: I came back.
ALEX: Don’t ever leave me. Don’t ever leave me again.
LEXIE: I won’t. I won’t ever leave. We’re always going to be together, okay? Always.

(L)

“I pick you. I choose you. You don’t get to die on me.”

teacher response

my old teacher wrote back, 

heres what he had to say:

Hey Emma

 Of course I remember you. I remember you telling me about how you were feeling and it hurt me to hear it. When kids tell me that they are feeling that way I want to say to them that it is just a matter of perspective. When you are young you don't realize that things aren't your fault and that adults and parents are just people too. They make mistakes and do stupid things without thinking of how they are hurting those close to them. My Dad used to get pretty mean when he had a few drinks. I used to feel like it was me doing it to him but as I grew up I had many talks with him and let him know how I felt about it. It helped me work though my emotions and hurt feelings and thank jebus he took it to heart and changed his ways.

Emma when you are young and things go wrong it seems like it will never end. What you don't realize at that age is that will change. It always changes. The only thing you are in control of is you and how you choose to deal with things. In life you will get your fair share of shit sandwiches, it is how you choose to deal with them that sets you apart. A very cool person that I have traveled all over the world with used to say to me, in times of crisis, 'Its all part of the adventure brother'. That is how I tend to look at things. We are on this planet for a nanosecond when you look at it from historical perspective. If you can learn to take the shit the world throws at you and that other people on this planet throw at you and still come out strong and believing in yourself you are doing great in my books. What I remember most about you is that you always seemed to have a smile on your face and when you didnt it troubled me. I hope you have found your groove and are doing well, if not keep looking because it is out there. There are very few people who truly chase their dreams in life. Things get in the way, life gets in the way, but I will tell you that fortune smiles on those that seek their dreams with reckless abandon. I know you can do it. To quote Yoda "The force is strong in this one".

You made me smile. That story isn't easy for me to tell. It never gets routine telling it. It is part of who I am as a person. I watched as those kids drove away to make a mistake that was forever. I feel that it is my duty to tell that story as many times as I can to as many people as I can in hopes that something that was so negative and painful might turn into something good. I do it to honor my friends. I do it for John Newby (my best bud in the whole world). The fact that it helped you means that something good came of it and it makes the pain that still lives in me a little less. Thanks for looking for me and thank you for saying those kind words. It is tough to connect with kids when you are just a supply teacher. I bounced from school to school for so many years but WIDick was like a home to me for many of those years. I am glad that I got to connect with you and help you out in whatever way I could. I would love to make you a friend on facebook but I get up to far too much crazy stuff Emma. I have to keep my professional life separate from my social life. When you get to college I would be happy to add you (ha!). Until then if you feel like chatting please email me anytime. I am living in Istanbul Turkey now. I am teaching Turkish kids (grade 6,7,and 8). They are little buggers but they don't hold a candle to the wild times at the Dick.
Thanks again
Dave (We can drop the Mr.B stuff as I most likely wont teach you again)

potos

 

is it just me, or does zach look realllllyyyyy fuckiiingggg goooooooodddd!!!

 

best people. :)

 

 

i thought about a teacher i had a few years ago,

i found him on facebook, and sent this message to him

heres the message:

Hi Mr. Bennett, I dont know if you remember me or not, but i had you as a supply teacher many of times for grade 6 & 8 at W.I. Dick, you still from this day are my favourite teacher :)
I just the other day was thinking about when you came in and talked to our grade 8 classes about the lost of your friends when you were younger. It made me realize that life is so short! I dont know if you remember, but after you talked to us, i came up to you and talked about how i was suicidal all that year, i had alot of problems at home with my dad and found out about his drug addiction this year, this made me very depress and felt like i hate everything and blamed his problems on myself, though and you really opened my eyes to how life is so short! and how i have to live each day to its fullest.
So i thought it would be cool if i found you and gave you a big thank you, for you have had such a big impact on my life. And yeah, thank you soo much Mr. Bennett, i hope you are great! And taking over the world and all ahaha, :) Hope to hear back to you..
Emma (:

jesse williams

here's something for you to drool about :)

hottest guy ever.

MCmocha :)

CITIZENS ARREST MOTHER FUCKER

New Alarm Clocks

doorbells

to my girl beyonce :)

Is It A Good Idea To Microwave A Bottle Of Medicine?

stop talking shit

stop talking shit please

and say it to my fucking face.

thanks bitches.

allergies suck

4yearsago..

it was the first day of grade nine..

i cannot believe that tomorrow is the first day of my last year of highschool.

it really is bizarre!

it really opens my eyes to my future,

it really means im growing up.

pretty crazzy, but im so excited.

im so excited for this year.

it is going to be so much fun :)

im pumped. wish me luck! (%)

dear sober emma

as i sit in my bed,

still kinda drunk

but deffinitly sober up,

i want to make a note of myself to my sober self

to let myself know that i had a really great night tonight

i met a guy who was really sweet, hung out most of the night

didnt do anything with him, but wanted to but controled myself

i got his number,

and he has mine

that was really nice tonight.

i also said goodbye to one of my bestfriends for a few months

for she will be off seas going to university in england

"i will miss you so fucking much, have fun, and be safe"

which i did cry when i said goodbye to her, but she said ill see you soon stop crying

:)

i had a greats night, probs the last party of the summer for me,

which is a good thing,

i had lots of fun, and yeah, good night :)

fav tv shows

im not a big tv watcher, but i do have three favourite shows

these are shows ive seen every episode of these shows

i said i was going to do top 3 everyweek,

but ive got more than three favourites :P ahaha

sorry..

greys anatomy,

ive seen every episode, i freaking love this show. :):)

and yes i still cry everytime i see the episode denny dies,

and when george dies i almost broke my tv

how i met your mother,

JS & NPH 

is there anything else i have to say?

best. watch if you havent. 

rob's fantasy factory

the funniest show on mtv, 

rob dyrdek is the greatest person eveeer!!!

funniest guy ever, and drama. big cat!? best! :)

freaks and geeks

i know this is a totally old show, but it is the best

it has all the greatest actors!!

and this was judd apatows first debut! best!! :)

the office

beets. bears. battlestar galatica. 

this is funniest.

gotta love all the zingers and best liners here too!! :P