DREAM JOB
walking home with churchgirlmal made me realize something,
if i could have one dream job what would it be..
a surgeon.
honestly, having the heart of someone elses in youre hands.
is my dream.
although im not smart enough, i could never be one.
QOTD:
what is youre dream jooob?

PSSSS:
germphobe.. the perfect last day would have to be sitting at home with some popcorn with my bestbuds and famjam watching my dvd collection.. the hitting it up at a theatrical play, deffinitly a musical. then coming home sleeeping in a nice warm water bed.
that would be the perfect day for me.
peace love and all above.

lets be real, honestly.
accents are amazing.
:D
so when im older im moving to england or scotland...
and im going to live there for atleast 5 years, and then i'll come back
to canada. and ill have an accent. :)
top accents are :
01. Irish
02. Italian
03. Scottish
04. French
05. Australian
06. English
07. Swedish
08. Spanish
09. Welsh
10. American
dwi.
most atractive thing in a man is the accent.
xxx, talk soon ebrad

older men..

i just wanna put this out here.
i find older men to be so attraaactiive!
honestly, i want to date a older guy, like honestly
whenever i tell a girl my age that this guy was so hoot, but as soon as i say the guy was like 30 - 40 the girl is like 'OMFG THATS SO GROSS! HES SO OLD!"
to me, age does not matter. i actually thing being older is something that is a turn on to me.
lets be real, tell me you have NEVEEEEER checked out a older guy before.
now when i say older, i dont mean like grandpa old.
i mean like mid 30's 40's. okay? so dont think im like a teengage girl who gets turned on by grandpas. :P
but what im trying to say is, that more people should open their eyes and realize that men who are older are hot. and probably better than a guy you're age. see, older guys are probably more experienced :D if you know what i mean..
ps, you know there are hot filth's out there EXAMPLE BRAD PITT. ps, filth = father i'd like to fuck :D

k, lets juust get it out there:

You know I used to spend every day thinking about you
and dreaming about you, and everytime you walked by
I lost myself, do you know what that feels like? And you
couldn’t possibly know what it feels like to have that person
not have the same feelings back. Look, I'm sorry if you
miss the way I looked at you, but i dont miss the way you
never looked at me
dwi.
grow the fuck up. :)

were gonna get marrieddd :)

J.P.: [Robot Voice to Alex walking away] I hate your face.
Alex: [pauses, turns around] Did you say something?
J.P.: [Hides behind coat]
Alex: You're fuckin' weird.
J.P.: ...How did he see me?

Jeff: Do you have bathrooms here, or do I have to shit in a plant?
Shiloh: BAHAHAHA! Stupid FUCKING idiot! Red-shirted ASS! You guys think you're so fucking cool, it makes me sick! "Oh, let's go make fun of the vegans, and their crazy lifestyle!" We're not hurting anyone! Go eat a hamburger and choke on a cow dick!

Jeff: Yeah, my roomates were talking about getting me a CB so I could talk to other car beds

Dante: Whoa, chill bro... You know you can't raise your voice like that when the lion's here.

I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.

Colonel Frank Fitts: Where's your wife?
Lester Burnham : Uh, I dunno. Probably out fucking that dorky, prince-of-real-estate asshole. And you know what? I don't care.
Colonel Frank Fitts : Your wife is with another man and you don't care?
Lester Burnham : Nope. Our marriage is just for show. A commercial for how normal we are when we're anything but.

I can't believe you don't know how beautiful you are.

It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.

No one cares if you die, Lisa, because you're dead already. Your heart is cold. That's why you keep coming back here. You're not free. You need this place to feel alive. It's pathetic.

Valerie: You know, I can take a lot of crazy shit from a lot of crazy people. But you - you're not crazy.
Susanna : Oh yeah? Then what's wrong with me? What the fuck is going on inside my head? Tell me, Dr. Val, what's your diag-nonsense?
Valerie : You are a lazy, self-indulgent, little girl, who is making herself crazy.
Susanna : Is that your... *professional* opinion? Is that what you've learned in your advanced studies at night school for Negro welfare mothers? I mean, Melvin doesn't have a clue, Wick is a *psycho* and you... you *pretend* to be a doctor. You review the charts and dole out meds. But "you's ain't no doctor, Miss Valerie. You's just a little black nurse-maid".
Valerie : And you're just throwing it away.

Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is…Crazy isn’t being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It’s you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever.

--Girl, Interrupted
Daisy: You're just jealous, Lisa... because I got better... because I was released... because I have a chance... at a life.
Lisa : They didn't release you 'cause you're better, Daisy, they just gave up. You call this a life, hmm? Taking Daddy's money, buying your dollies and your knick-knacks... and eatin' his fuckin' chicken, fattening up like a prize fuckin' heifer? You changed the scenery, but not the fucking situation - and the warden makes house calls. And everybody knows. Everybody knows. That he fucks you. What they don't know... is that you like it. Hmm? You like it.
Susanna: What happened to Polly?
Lisa : What needs to happen? No one's ever gonna' kiss her, man. You know, they're building a new Disney Land in Florida. If I could have any job in the world, I'd be a professional Cinderella. You could be Snow White. And Polly could be Minnie Mouse. Everyone would hug her and kiss her and love her and no one would ever know what was in that big ol' head of hers, you know?

>“Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting.”

-- Peter Pan

I wish I could watch a movie or listen to a song without thinking about you.
Walking through the bookstore has become a chore because each title,
each cover, each beautiful word sends images of you into my mind.
I can't even close my eyes without you being there,
but imagining you just isn't enough.
I want you to be by my side so that each time I'm reminded of you,
I can look over my shoulder and be reminded all over again.

friday night

i hate boredum. ughhhh

lets just get it out there,
dont treat me like shit when i do nothing to do okay?
seriously, you've been treated me like this for 16 years.
so honestly give it up!! stop making me feel like complete shit.
for god shakes youre my fucking grandmother!

a fine day, though getting a needle for something i dont really believe was the right thing really hurts :D
im watching phantom, again :D
i have work tonight soo that shall be good. ps, got any tips on flirting in public?
ttyl

now that it's over,
i couldn't miss you more.

pain is inevitable. suffering is optional.

it's the little things that define who we are.

a life without love is like a year without summer.

love all.
trust few.
do wrong to no one.
--william shakespeare

phantom, i love you.

totallly tiiirredd.
ps, i honestly. love. phantom. i dont even care if he has a messed up face.
i love him :)
ps, i got some balls and told him that i liked him. and he responded in he did aswell.
which i am very thrilled. :D
germphobe was quite happy as well, as she jumped up and down in the hall. :)
ps, thanks. :D
prettty bored, so ill just post some quotes i like atm.
peace out hommies.

A TOWN BITCH! :D

We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can
to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair.

-P.S. I Love You

Fantasy, it it's really convincing, can't become dated, for the simple reason that it represents a flight into a dimension that lies beyond the reach of time.
-Walt Disney
You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to
fall into the right place, not only because it's right,
but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible.
I want to believe that. 

-Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

At some point, you have to make a decision. boundaries dont keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste you lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.
-Greys Anatomy

Doctors live in a world of constant progress and forward motion. Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind. But as hard as we try to move forward, as tempting as it is to never look back, the past always comes back to bite us in the ass. And as history shows us again and again, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it.

Let's play hopscotch in malls.
Let's drive fast with the top down.
Let's turn up the music as loud as it'll go.
Let's put a couch on an island
in the middle of the freeway
and wave at everyone on their way to work.
Let's hug strangers in parking lots.
Let's hand out secret messages at traffic lights.
Let's make lists of all the things that make us smile
and tick them off, one at a time.
The world will carry on without you and me when we're gone.
Let it carry on without us, today.

PUMPED ON JOB TRAINING TONIGHT :D
ps, i chickened out ttelling someone i liked them, im so mad at myself
i will though, dont worry.
nothing else to say,
kthnxbye.
ps, i love andy

I’ve felt basically lucky ever since,
almost every day of my life.
That’s something else love should make you feel.
It should make you feel fortunate.
It will be made clear to you in a stray gesture,
the line of a throat. Something in the hands.
There may or may not be any music playing.
But there will be a certain velocity of the spirit,
a sensation of dropping through clear space unimpeded,
and you think, This is the one.
I found you.

just saying it again, tale of two cities.
fuck you charles dickins. :)
honestly, i do not understand why the fuck we are reading this book?
okay, so it was about the french revolution.
newsflash english department!!!
WERE NOT FRENCH SO WHO FUCKING CARES
i could rant all day about this,
and honestly, why dont we just read another shakespeare novel for fuck shakes
the only reason were actually reading this book is for the literature.
well hello there smart one. shakespeare created the english language.
all i gotta say is, fuck you charles dickins and youre fucking dumb ass writing.

watching rob and big and painting a picture of shakespeare calms me down.
heres the painting im working on right now..
ugh, tiring / boring weekend.
not down for school this week
but so down for work tomorrow and thursday :)
sooo pumped. :D
do work son.
xx

I told you I'd leave a light on in case you ever wanted to come back home.
You smiled and said, you appreciate the gesture.
I took your every word to heart cause I can't stand us being apart.
And just to show how much I really miss you, every light in the house is on.
The backyard's bright as the crack of dawn. The front walk looks like runway lights.
It's kind of like noon in the dead of night.
Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone, every light in the house is on.

hiiiguurl,
so germphobia kinda inspired me to start blogging again, :P
thanks germphobe. week was good, last night mytphangout at julphobia, though i went home at 2:30 cause i felt sick,
i felt bad for going home, this one time when i was like umm.. 9?
i had a sleepover with taywavephobia and she like left at like 12:00 cause she "didnt feel better". and i was crushed. i cried the whole night.
and i promised myself i wouldnt do that to someone.
but i did last night, my apologies julphobe. :)

had training/orientation.
which was a snore though was good :)
i am so pumped on starting work,

ps, tale of two cities is the dumbest book ever. sers.
talk soon,

love actually is all around us

i think im absolutely inlove :)
with this thing called love,
the butterflys fly in my stomach when i think of him
i smile when i picture his face in my head
i laugh when i remember him putting on his lame wig
i blush when i think of him speaking :)
i really like him, i hope its more this time then a heartbreaker.
heeeey thereee germphobia, i knew you would love that movie

glad i saw paranormal activity for the second time
for now i am going to be able to get sleep for the rest of my life
ps, if you havent seen it, please do. it is a treat :)

a theatre hangout is something that always cheers me up
they're my family, and i cant live without them
tired, though the sugar high is keeping me awake
ps, i hate WII. :)
night bras.

lady gaga, lets mate. :D

loooooonnnggg timmmeee :D
sorry but ive now realized this new website called tumblr
its kinda the best.
im sorry blog.
but it has way beeetter quality than you,
but i will always have feelings for you blogger,
its just tumblr rocks my socks.
ill always still be here,
ill always write :)